I'm neither completely surprised nor upset.
Yeah, I'm not one of the "pregnant our first month" people.
Honestly, I'm not super emotional over this. The best word is disappointed. I am not upset that our first month of TTC didn't yield the desired benefit, I'm upset because I want a baby. It's difficult to articulate the deep desire I have for a baby, but it gets deeper daily.
In my usual fashion, however, I will cuddle Peanut until I'm blessed with a little one of my own.